Meant to Burn

from we've been the garages by the garages

"i’m thinkin’ bout the future
that never came to pass
and all the bloody sutures
in my face are out at last

i’m healing like a human
i’m an angel stuck on earth
what the hell am i doing
what the hell was it all worth

cause i just go and go
and keep on going
i grow, and grow
grow past the moments
where i loved, i lost
i fought for a home that
is gone, it’s gone now

if i had a nickel
for every time that i was thrown out
just as i was getting comfortable
i’d have more money than you could count

and maybe with all that i didn’t earn
i’d build my life back from skin and bone
or maybe i’d just watch the world turn
buy myself a nice headstone saying
“he was always meant to burn”

when i sleep i dream of gold
and when i’m up my body aches
none of us were ever told 
the horrid toll release would take

cause i’m living like i’m human
even though i never have
i guess the perks of being 19
forever they don’t last

cause i keep going and going
but why do i bother
when i keep growing older
and outliving others
all i loved, i have lost
and the home that i fought for
is gone, yeah, it’s gone now

if i had a nickel
for every time that i was thrown out
just as i was getting comfortable
i’d have more money than you could count

and maybe with all that i didn’t earn
i’d build my life back from skin and bone
or maybe i’d just watch the world turn
buy myself a nice headstone saying
“he was always meant to burn”

oh, i’m gettin too tired to be sad forever
i was not a liaison, not now or ever
i live like a flash fire, i burn bright but lethal
everybody says “parker, let yourself heal”

but my memory’s hazy, gone with the time
i don’t know how we got here, who did it or why
i am not a liaison, i was just hers
i was always an angel stuck here on earth
i am just a bad angel stuck here on earth
i am just a dying angel for what it’s worth

if i had a nickel
for every time that i was thrown out
just as i was getting comfortable
i’d have more money than you could count

and maybe with all that i didn’t earn
i’d build my life back from skin and bone
or maybe i would just watch the world turn
buy myself a nice head stone, saying

he was always meant to
he was always meant to
he was always meant to, yeah
i was always meant to burn"