black hole pulse [live @ db2024]

from THE GARAGES SIGN OFF @ DESERT BUS 2024 by the garages

written by Everywhere But Here (ebhband.bandcamp.com) Everywhere But Here is sci-fi, amadis, and ras originally on BLASETOBER lead vocals by amadis (solarfable.bandcamp.com) backing vocals by ras (ebhband.bandcamp.com), lex, and raph (apha.bandcamp.com, twitter.com/aphamusic) lead guitar by sci-fi boyfriend (ebhband.bandcamp.com) and fox (slavfox.space , @slavfoxman) rhythm guitars by yana (going-nowhere.bandcamp.com), nia (echoparallax.bandcamp.com, parallax.fyi ), gabi (girlballz.bandcamp.com, bsky.app/profile/girl-ballz.bsky.social), and alian (dirtyheathen.bandcamp.com, agent392.bandcamp.com) bowed guitar by riley (yuppiesupper.bandcamp.com, @thwackamabob) lap steel by vigilant baker (vigilantbaker.bandcamp.com) bass by bertie (cardboardchords.bandcamp.com, @heyitsbertie) drums by hibi (hibi.bandcamp.com, twitter.com/hibiscuitss) and the black hole pulse choir: navi (starnavigator.bandcamp.com, bsky.app/profile/starnavigator.bsky.social), louisa (x.com/LouisaBlatt), tegan (tonalchroma.bandcamp.com), ben

my physical therapist says it's amazing how i'm standing strong
black hole heartbeats don't usually last very long
so there's no precedent for this singularity
just brace and bear the weight: a walking zombie

and you say
nothing's changed 
like i can’t
feel my body null and void
cosmic hum
in my veins, made over

your heart beats twice as fast as mine
like it's chasing the safety of keeping in time
and i'm already far too gone

my black hole pulse is gonna swallow you away
if you knew what i knew you wouldn't have me stay
so i’d rather be already gone

it’s in your eyes, the way it starts to take its toll
slow motion windup like you’re loathe to finally let it go 
desperate to see you smile, but i’m damned to pull you in
event horizon mirrored, we’re due to cross within the year

swallow pride 
with the moon
pack your bags
for a fate we can't outrun
counting down
to collapse of the sun

your heart beats twice as fast as mine
like it's chasing the safety of keeping in time
and i'm already far too gone

my black hole pulse is gonna swallow you whole
if you knew what i'd say you wouldn't ask at all
so i’d rather be already gone

[sick instrumentals]

how can i keep running?
how are we to keep running?
why do i keep running?

maybe i'm still hungry
as long as i'm still standing
fate will have to catch me

your heart beats twice as fast as mine
like it's chasing the safety of keeping in time
and i'm already far too gone

my black hole pulse would’ve swallowed you whole
you wouldn't hold onto hope if you knew what i know
so i’d rather be already gone

your heart beats twice as fast as mine
so determined to stay; to keep us synched in time
but i'm already far too gone

my black hole pulse would've swallowed you away
i couldn't live with myself if i let you stay
so i'm sorry, i'm already gone

the scientists say it's amazing how i'm holding on
black hole heartbeats don't usually last very long