fortnite at twenty-four

from where we droppin, boys? by thank the bus driver

[let's now talk fortnite, shall we?
it's the newest video game craze spreading across-
fast among kids, college kids, even celebrities,
and while it's fun, it is also frustrating for
parents and teachers and anyone else who's heard
"i can't, i'm playing fortnite"]

notification: new message from a friend
last message: may 2018
"i saw that you're online,
we haven't chatted in a while
but if i remember
we made a great team"
but she was busy moving 
and i was busy moving
and i wasn't in a good place to be

notification: new message from a friend
"i would like to catch up
if you're free"

she's become a girl since then
i've become a different person

let's play fortnite together
for old time's sake
it's all a little new but it's
still nicely familiar
like a re-patched sweater

let's play fortnite together
like we did back in the day
feel the bridges 
growing back between us
as if it were five years ago
as if i would forget her

[through subscriptions and endorsements
i have no intention of stopping any time soon]

i'm making a joke
and i'm not laughing
and she's not laughing with me
and we've just stayed online
because we're scared of what's outside
but it's hard to be funny
in quarantine

and i was busy losing 
the contacts in my phone book
and finding a new place to be
and finding i don't know
all the people i used to know
like they're strangers i just 
saw on the street

she's become a girl since then
i've become a different person

let's play fortnite together
for old time's sake
it's all a little new but it's
still nicely familiar
like a re-patched sweater

let's play fortnite together
like we did back in the day
feel the bridges 
growing back between us
as if it were five years ago
as if i would forget her

[it's frustrating
it's become a frustration in my home
they're so consumed in this game]

notification: 
and i'm sorry i find it 
hard to stay in touch
every time i think of reaching out
i find that it's too much
and every time i feel that guilt
it makes me want to fucking die
and i actually don't want to
at least i will not actively try
but anyway
this isn't needed
you don't need to know this stuff
hop on discord
play some fortnite
maybe that will be enough to
distract me from my demons
and you can forget yours
playing this seems very different 
since we both turned twenty four [x2]