time

from fourth strike song jam 2022 by Fourth Strike Records

by fox (@slavfoxman)

it’s been ten years and I still haven’t healed
the shadows of your hands still linger on my neck
no cigarettes will wash away your breath
so how am I supposed to breathe?

I thought I could tune out the part of me
you made to worship all of you
you made to crave the things you took
I thought that I could heal from you

but the memories still keep me awake at night
how does it feel to know I’ve still not put my past behind
all this time

it’s been ten years and it’s just like you said
not one day passes by without you at the edge
my consciousness got too used to being hurt
so how am I supposed to heal?

I thought I’d find at least a part of me
you haven’t bent and split in two
something kept away from you
anything you haven’t used

but the memories still keep me awake at night
how does it feel to know I’ve still not put our past behind
all this time