dear vault

from BLASETOBER by the garages

lyrics, writing, and production by Astrid guitar by Bertie (hadestiger.bandcamp.com)

you took me in from the biting cold
you made me feel like my weight in gold
gave me everything i asked for, all the gilt i could withstand
but no one ever taught you to understand

i told you everything that was weighing on my mind
the faded memories i was scared to leave behind
you pondered for a second, did the only thing you know
but no one ever taught you to let go

and i said,
dear vault, can you take me somewhere else
dear vault, show me where i can be myself

and it said,
there within the twisting walls is the journey that you seek
i hope you find the place of which you speak

as i wandered derelict paths
a thousand hallways of broken glass
you offered me a way out, i said i'd find it on my own
no one ever taught me to be alone

do you remember when i told you
that i was running out of time
and you tore yourself to pieces
so i could stay forever prime
now i realize you only ever wanted me to live
but no one ever taught me to forgive, to forgive–

and i said,
dear vault, can you take me somewhere else
(somewhere far away from here)
dear vault, show me where i can be myself
(if you ever find it)

and it said,
there within the twisting walls is the journey that you seek
i hope you found the place of which you speak