go down (or fall)
from the garages (learn nothing) by the garages
by riley ( lidocaineleeds.bandcamp.com )
it was a mercy in your eyes to be alone when the world died nothing could be better i decided just to let her walk into the endless sun i couldn’t bear it, so i’d run towards the nearest black hole “it’ll swallow up my burnt soul” i fell down “i’ll let me drown” in the darkness i heard voices in the rain others falling as they came to this gorgeous new world the stars, they seemed to unfurl it’s not the same here, this I know, i left the desert for the snow no better than a scene change at least it’s not my old cage i’ll settle down i’ll let you down, you down from the darkness where are you where are you where are you now? where are you where are you where are you now? i remember writing you in moab terrified of when you’d call for a chat sick and tired of this goddamn game but it made you happy, that i know filled some sort of bleeding hole the thought made everything okay we saw the apocalypse together, thought that we’d managed to live through it instead you scattered yourself, instead you threw yourself upon the sand was any of it ever real? was everything you said to me a demo reel of what a real person could have had? instead of a faker getting faker every time you asked (now she’s dead, and i’m someone else) (i’ve got the best life, cos i’m living with the best wife) i’ve tried taking control, only made it worse i tried moving on, it only made me hurt there’s no magic bullet, no simple fix i just gotta try and start again in this empty place nothing gets better if you don’t give a shit nothing gets better if you don’t try at it so just push every second of every day we’re gonna recover no matter what’s in our way