Crystal Healer

from I Love Birds by Coyote Wall

i could move to arizona
start selling crystals to the tourists
change the number on my cell phone
and you’d be none the wiser

here’s some amethyst for honesty
some rosy quartz all pink and smoky
i’ll polish off the imperfections 
until i'm fit to find a buyer

do i believe it
well that’s between me and god
it’s not a self-conscious fraud
it’s just a lie that i buy into 

and i will sit and watch the sun set
and i’ll forget about the old ways
i’ll forget about the things i’ve done before
cause i’m a healer now

it’s nothing like your old religion
there is no sin and no forgiveness
there is no need to make a bargain
not that i ever knew how

do i believe it
well that’s between me and god
it’s not a self-conscious fraud
it’s just a lie that i buy into 

it’s just a lie that i buy into when there’s nothing else to make me feel secure
how can i help it when they seem so self-assured
and when they talk to me that way
their voices soft and silvered and i swear i hear them say
there is no wound so deep 
that it eludes our prayer
hold this moonstone to your heart 
and be repaired 
be repaired

there is no wound so deep 
that it eludes our prayer
hold this moonstone to your heart 
and be repaired 
be repaired
keep it there

i will live among these people
they will not know my past transgressions 
they’ll love my hair and kind demeanor
and they’ll be none the wiser